So yeah. Before Thanksgiving break, Maggie and I got a lil tipsy and had some very wild sex. This sex was also facilitated by Louie going out with two friends. So we are being very loud and apparently at one point, Louie came home to get his keys to take the friends home. Or so we thought.
The next morning, we come to find out that Louie AND both his friends had come in. One of the friends had gotten drunk and had to pee (or throw up?) and was taking forever. Meanwhile, Louie and the girl he wants to date were in the living room waiting. And the walls are paper thin.
Now Louie teases me that I make bird calls instead of sex noises. *palmforehead*
Two nights ago, we had sex in my bed (because the roomie I share a room with was gone) and Maggie came twice. :-)
And last night? I squirted. Without cumming. WTF body? As if it's not rare enough for a woman to be able to squirt....how rare is it to squirt without cumming? *sigh*
It really does make me feel like I must be doing something wrong. I said something similar last night after I squirted and Maggie has been trying to reassure me that it's probably just my meds because I am doing everything right from her perspective.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
I have run out of titles...
Maggie had the best orgasm of her life last night. It went on and on...probably 15-30 seconds long (I'm bad with guessing times). My lucky, lucky girl.
No success for me in the orgasm department though. I've started wondering what's wrong with my freaking body, but instead of worry about it, I've been reading all I can about orgasms. I just want to have one goddamnit! It's sorta that feeling like everyone's at a party, but you can't get in cuz all the doors are locked. Or something. That was a ridiculous analogy and I apologize.
And I want to strangle Louie. He's such a goddamn blasted idiot child. Here's the thing...I like him in small doses. But I like most of her friends better than that....I could stand to spend whole days with Lynn and Jerry or George. Her family makes me so happy and they already seem to love me (they've pretty much said as much to Maggie) and I feel very comfortable with them even if I don't always talk as much when Maggie's not around.
But Louie....I don't like that he thinks he can walk all over Maggie and that she's going to take it. She's made it clear that she won't stand for it, but she does sometimes bend to his will which in the examples I've seen, I don't think they are all that healthy. And he does stupid childish things like put pennies in her underwear or pull her pants and underwear down to moon people that infuriate me because they are a complete lack of respect for boundaries. Not to mention how it really makes me not trust him. *shudder*
No success for me in the orgasm department though. I've started wondering what's wrong with my freaking body, but instead of worry about it, I've been reading all I can about orgasms. I just want to have one goddamnit! It's sorta that feeling like everyone's at a party, but you can't get in cuz all the doors are locked. Or something. That was a ridiculous analogy and I apologize.
And I want to strangle Louie. He's such a goddamn blasted idiot child. Here's the thing...I like him in small doses. But I like most of her friends better than that....I could stand to spend whole days with Lynn and Jerry or George. Her family makes me so happy and they already seem to love me (they've pretty much said as much to Maggie) and I feel very comfortable with them even if I don't always talk as much when Maggie's not around.
But Louie....I don't like that he thinks he can walk all over Maggie and that she's going to take it. She's made it clear that she won't stand for it, but she does sometimes bend to his will which in the examples I've seen, I don't think they are all that healthy. And he does stupid childish things like put pennies in her underwear or pull her pants and underwear down to moon people that infuriate me because they are a complete lack of respect for boundaries. Not to mention how it really makes me not trust him. *shudder*
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
I have brain issues....
Okay, I'm going to start out this entry by saying....last night, I watched the last fourth of season 1 of Metalocalypse last night and that shit makes my brain all jumbled. So if I start writing like English is my second language...it's not.
Last night was amazing and tiring. Maggie and I were going at it in my room (which was hot in the first place cuz I share a room so we don't get to have fun in there very often) and I was SO close for SO long that I nearly passed out. Seriously, I was at the plateau for 10-15 minutes, but it felt like even longer than that. Maggie thought she was going to lose a finger to my...squeezing. *palmface* We had to stop because 1) my clit was numb from my vibrator and 2) we were going to George's to watch Heroes.
Louie was being an asshat again. Seriously, he needs to cut out his immature bullcrap because it's really annoying to me. And George. And Maggie.
Last night was amazing and tiring. Maggie and I were going at it in my room (which was hot in the first place cuz I share a room so we don't get to have fun in there very often) and I was SO close for SO long that I nearly passed out. Seriously, I was at the plateau for 10-15 minutes, but it felt like even longer than that. Maggie thought she was going to lose a finger to my...squeezing. *palmface* We had to stop because 1) my clit was numb from my vibrator and 2) we were going to George's to watch Heroes.
Louie was being an asshat again. Seriously, he needs to cut out his immature bullcrap because it's really annoying to me. And George. And Maggie.
Monday, November 12, 2007
I have actual conversations...
...like this:
"Your face smells like vagina."
"No, your face smells like vagina."
"Vagina-face!!"
"Your face smells like vagina."
"No, your face smells like vagina."
"Vagina-face!!"
Thursday, November 8, 2007
I have frustrations.....
For one, I'm still on my journey to orgasm. This is frustrating for a number of reasons.
For another, I am getting the feeling like Maggie's friends don't always respect her, minus two of the guys, and that is really upsetting to me. I am so super loyal that perhaps I am holding them to unattainable standards. But between the disregard for her request to keep her sister off the board and her roommate demanding that I not spend the night most weekends (even though she pays more rent than him, pays entirely for the internet they both use, pays for most of the food, etc), it just seems very disrespectful of her feelings.
A third is that it seems Amanda's boyfriend has done something shitty yet again. Like, part of me realizes that he is a really great guy and that Amanda is like me in that we can both overreact, so perhaps she is just overreacting? But at the same time, I feel like she probably isn't...she's a lot more stable than me and the stuff I have heard about from her has been rather crappy. Time will tell.
Fourth, I keep thinking I have exams when I don't. This leads me to studying like crazy, then showing up to class and being extremely disappointed. I mean, that means all of next week will look like this week did. BLEH.
Fifth is some of the crappy things people said when we were talking about dating violence in my Women and Crimes class. It's two days later, but it's still bugging me. It's weird too because one of my roommates said similar things just the day before (of the "god, if a guy ever hit me, i'd be out of there so fast" kind) and all I could do was busy myself with chores in the kitchen. Yeah, so no one has ever gone so far as to hit me in a relationship, but I have been raped and I went on more dates with him, I have been used for sex, I have been used to fill the self-esteem void in the case of Dorothy....and so....when people say those things, they are hurtful. Cuz it's not like I don't already feel bad enough about the mistakes I've made. And because it comes off as victim blaming because "obviously" I should have left these people....but honestly, it wasn't that easy. I was scared, I was hurting, I had little to no self-esteem....and I wish more people could be empathetic to that.
That said, I had a really good discussion with George. He's one of Maggie's friends who I feel like is very respectful of her feelings and he let me talk to him about the roommate situation and gave out some pretty damn good advice. On top of that, he's been helping in my journey to orgasm by offering suggestions of things to try. I finally told him about the rape and how that factors in....and he was so empathetic and just....he told me he didn't know what to say, which I very much prefer to saying nothing.
For another, I am getting the feeling like Maggie's friends don't always respect her, minus two of the guys, and that is really upsetting to me. I am so super loyal that perhaps I am holding them to unattainable standards. But between the disregard for her request to keep her sister off the board and her roommate demanding that I not spend the night most weekends (even though she pays more rent than him, pays entirely for the internet they both use, pays for most of the food, etc), it just seems very disrespectful of her feelings.
A third is that it seems Amanda's boyfriend has done something shitty yet again. Like, part of me realizes that he is a really great guy and that Amanda is like me in that we can both overreact, so perhaps she is just overreacting? But at the same time, I feel like she probably isn't...she's a lot more stable than me and the stuff I have heard about from her has been rather crappy. Time will tell.
Fourth, I keep thinking I have exams when I don't. This leads me to studying like crazy, then showing up to class and being extremely disappointed. I mean, that means all of next week will look like this week did. BLEH.
Fifth is some of the crappy things people said when we were talking about dating violence in my Women and Crimes class. It's two days later, but it's still bugging me. It's weird too because one of my roommates said similar things just the day before (of the "god, if a guy ever hit me, i'd be out of there so fast" kind) and all I could do was busy myself with chores in the kitchen. Yeah, so no one has ever gone so far as to hit me in a relationship, but I have been raped and I went on more dates with him, I have been used for sex, I have been used to fill the self-esteem void in the case of Dorothy....and so....when people say those things, they are hurtful. Cuz it's not like I don't already feel bad enough about the mistakes I've made. And because it comes off as victim blaming because "obviously" I should have left these people....but honestly, it wasn't that easy. I was scared, I was hurting, I had little to no self-esteem....and I wish more people could be empathetic to that.
That said, I had a really good discussion with George. He's one of Maggie's friends who I feel like is very respectful of her feelings and he let me talk to him about the roommate situation and gave out some pretty damn good advice. On top of that, he's been helping in my journey to orgasm by offering suggestions of things to try. I finally told him about the rape and how that factors in....and he was so empathetic and just....he told me he didn't know what to say, which I very much prefer to saying nothing.
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